Oh so deceiving.

Adele, oh, adele.

2011-08-30T12:24:00.000-07:00

Adele has such a beautiful voice. A voice that reaches in and pulls out everything you feel.

I never expected anything. So why am i still so attached to someone that i'm absolutely happy to see obviously ecstatic with another?

No one reads this blog anymore.

2011-08-16T17:19:00.000-07:00

And so, it's just another place for me to rant.

It's my birthday today. All going great so far. Close friends and family wished me but for some reason I'm still thinking about one person.

Why am i still thinking about her? It's been over 3-4 months and yet it stings like i've been cut yesterday. Maybe I'm terrified that the person that dominate my thoughts doesn't think about me the slightest. Terrified that I mean nothing to her that she can't even remember my birthday.

This is a side effect of tumblr i swear. I am not normally emotional out of the blue. I just can't get her out of my head.

I am disappointed that she hasn't contacted me at all. I'll be crushed if she doesn't for the next few days. If that happens, i will know that i am out of her life. Hold on, i know that very well. After all, it was I that walked out on her life. Nothing dramatic, people. I just had to leave that country due to my expiring visa at the moment.

I am not ashamed to say i still love her and miss her. She treated me like a princess and she helped me mature as the young adult I am today. We grew as a couple. An outstanding beautiful couple with massive potential.

I need sleep. I need her. I WANT her.

Moving on is not hard. Letting go is. Especially when you know you're letting go of something so good. It just doesn't make sense.

;(

im not one of them k-pop culture fan

2010-02-26T20:42:00.000-08:00

.... but im sure im turning into one. DARN YOU SHIRLEY NGUI DARN YOU.

I often watch this program called "Invincible Youth" which is sorta like The Simple Life by Paris and Nicole - except with more people and in korean. =) It features a cast of k-pop celebs and i cant lie, but they're pretty amusing to watch.

Give them a try and you'll definitely be laughing along and listening to their music.

On another note, PARK GA HEE. (again, darn you shirley. darn you) Girl crush *SWOON*

I MEAN - she dances amazing! According to someone on youtube- she does MJ's dances better than Usher. respect.

gah.

Awesome smile too!

Publish Post

>:|

Im jealous.

Flying tomorrow

2010-02-24T07:55:00.000-08:00

I just came back from being out with gia and char and their friends. Pretty interesting bunch. But i was suppose to be out with jesse and joash doing some zombie killing. =( i feel bad.

But hopefully i get to see them tomorrow before i leave. ;( awesome summer i had. seriously.

Pack. Pack. Gah. And i totally forgot my password for account for my online account. D: now i have to call them and reset a new password. it's going to be frustration LORD. my fault for having a goldfish's memory span.

i miss fwish and teh. =( asdjflasjf

Reviving my blog, passion and fitness

2010-02-10T18:54:00.000-08:00

It's 2010 baby!

And I'm determined to get in shape and refuel my passion for the arts - through my blog. Killing three birds with one stone!

I realised that since I came back in December, I've put back on all the weight (and more) I've lost during my stay in Auckland. All this food, outings and family dinners are really catching up on me.

I mean I used to be so comfortable with my own body image. Now, that confidence is blinding me. I really need to keep in shape. But to be fair i did shed fat in NZ. But i know that's not enough!

All that said, Im only starting when i reach back in auckland. Reason?

It's CNY! I can't avoid large family dinners. T^T

GAH.

so yeah

2009-12-17T11:24:00.000-08:00

no pictures. dont even bother at all. had a nice night with some people. nice. decent. not too bad.

but then i saw someone that reminded me of someone back in auckland, and no, it's not yasmin. and for some reason lots of people know yasmin already lmao.

tho i do wish i did somethings differently back then, i dont regret it. i learn. :P

sister is taking too long in the toilet D:

beautiful sunday morning!

2009-11-28T09:24:00.000-08:00

what to do when you miss someone so terribly? even after you've tried msging that person, but afraid to call because you're scared to bother. second msg sent, and still no reply after days?

" ok i got what you mean. you dont want to see me again?"

"im going crazy over you please bloody send me a txt to let me know, at least, that you're still alive and breathing."

*sighigh.*

gotta keep your chin up no matter what!

and what do i do when i know i wont be seeing you again for the next few months.

I still think of times i had with you guys

2009-10-27T05:32:00.000-07:00

Each and everyone of you back in secondary school. I've been insomniac for the past few nights, and all i think about are those wonderful happy happy times that i dreadfully miss.

And of course, it includes you, Aaron. That dream i had about you. Thanks.

For those who didnt read about my dream i posted on his facebook wall here it is. The day i remembered about what i dreamt, i had just had to post it up - right before catching the bus. I couldn't just leave it in my head.

so the dream went like this:

I was just standing there, facing this blank grey wall. Someone standing to my left, i couldn't make out who. I was just minding my own business and then this guy, familiar face - a face i knew i missed. He popped up from behind the wall I was facing. On him was a red polo, donned with thin horizontal white stripes. It took me a moment to realise who this guy was.

With a blank look, he handed me a pink box (very much like those cake boxes). Smiled and disappeared behind the very same wall. Confused much? VERY. I stood there holding that box - very very confused.

Seconds later, that guy, that devil of a guy. He came back behind the wall, "JUST JOKING LAH!" I was still pretty much confused. I smiled nonetheless. Blissed because he heard me and decided to give me a quick visit. He put his arm around me, started talking (cant remember about what). Right before he disappeared, he said, "So you're behaving right? I know you are. Keep it up! Be a good girl kay?" (there's a reason this means so much to me)

Guys, if you saw what you say you'd know he was in a much better place. His face was just beaming. It was seriously glowing, and he had the biggest, most genuine smile I've ever witness. It was so vivid, i cannot and will not forget that image.

And when i looked back at the box, it was a bowl. An orange bowl - very much like those kopitiam kolo mee bowls. "yes, he remembered our promise to enjoy a bowl of authentic kuching kolo mee together when i get back."

I miss you aaron. you know that. XD

One reason this meant so much to me is, not only did i 'asked' for a visit when i really missed him, but when i did - Jesse and Morgan told me being the person he was , he'd probably prank or surprised me. He did exactly that. And it's mind blowing. Including that bowl of kolo mee.

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And the rest of you guys! You know who you are, and even the ones who think they're not one of those im mentioning. When i say you guys, i meant it. All of you. 5A. 3B. I count my blessings everyday - and thank the good Lord i have such wonderful and accepting friends in the world.

Yes world, be jealous. BE F****** jealous. I have the BEST FRIENDS on earth. notice the s? PLURAL MUDAFUKKA. They are all F****** fantastic, you have no idea how amazing they are. Always there when you need them. And when you tell them something you fear might put them of, they surprise you and love you even more.

Best fucking friends in the world.

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and as for my family. I never dared say how much i miss you guys - mainly because you ~~idiots~~ guys have some sort of unwritten policy to hardly say a word about missing each other or something. But damn, do i miss my brother. I was disappointed when he told me earlier that he might not be going back to Kch this year.

Little sis, you idiot - you'll get a good sisterly beating first thing i see you.

Old hag of an older sister - i love you, but let me help you! and tell me you love me too.

Mom - i've always told you and you know. sorry i get on your nerves too much, but sometimes you have to compromise.

Dad - i want to spend more time with you! D8 Like, sitting in front of the tv set and just watching a movie quietly - and then you with your comments on how ridiculous the movie and actors are.

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and i couldnt have asked for more when i met this girl - who is like a sister to me here. yasmin you ga7ba - this will sound gay. and it is. Im sooooo happy i have someone here who understands and accept me like the people back home. so im glad i met you , you nigga. HAHHA.

imsomniac now. i will try to sleep to wake up early to work on my portfolio.

slept during september

2009-10-02T01:02:00.001-07:00

Realized that i didnt update zit during september. And no one woke me up when it ended as well. =(

I woke up myself. nyahah.

Well, finals are in a months time. Gotta sort everything - get back on track. Everything seems to be going well. Studies and all. Picking up slowly. Just hoping i dont somehow lose my mojo.

pls pls.

My bed awaits. Feeling tired after school these few days. Been waking up at 6am and earlier automatically. Feels good. Feels real good.

Missing you guys. XOXO

sick

2009-08-27T16:50:00.000-07:00

I somehow managed to catch strep throat from my dear friend, yasmin. =.= Yes, it's infectious. SO i shouldnt go school unless i want to be blamed for giving half the college my sickness.

Great thing is, it's a friday, and i have two more days to heal without my attendence dropping.

Thanks to Panadol night, i finally got rid of that 2 day headache and decent rest. I reallly really dont like my immune system. Back of my throat there are ulcer look a likes everywhere. Disgusting. It looks like it's rotting. D8 so effin horrible. And i went online to learn more about it? The antibiotics given wouldnt neccessarily speed up the healing process - just stop it from being infectious. *sigh*

cant swallow without pain. cant spit without pain. ughh. And i cant eat till im satisfied because that might be too much and i might puke it all out and get hungry again. =(

argh. fml.

oh water!

2009-08-10T01:59:00.000-07:00

i spilled a whole litre's worth of water on my carpet last night, and i didnt know. now it's all wet. =(

and omg, someone flyy me to arizona now! My love is waiting for me there! XDD

2009-07-30T02:01:00.000-07:00

"love doesnt share itself with the world. love is suspicious. love is needy. love is fearful. love is greedy.
my friends, there is no great love without great jealousy." ~ bender

*i know that totally contradicts my opinion of polyamoric relationships, but it's so true, i have to share it*

Long live futurama.

p/s : leela is hot.

i friggin love art classes

2009-07-27T22:45:00.000-07:00

I just love my art periods with my teacher, Jane. She's the coolest teacher EVER. The thing is she appreciates her students art works , so that means our works are on the wall in the college.

yep. It makes me feel good,.. like.. realllly goood. I have two of my woodcuts in the computer lab, one done on a canvas, near the library, and a huge A2 sized one , framed, in th

e principle's office.

ahhah big deal really. ~~no one really looks at them~~ Other students have their art up, esp Yasmin's, because she does really decorative ones.

yasmin, epitome of crazy.

And recently she painted her face, and i collabed by taking the photos! Jane's hubby, Ted,blew the pictures up, HUGE. i'll get pictures of them soon.

These are the ones, i think.

she does really amazing stuff this girl!

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btw, had the best time last week end climbing up (literally, we got tired of keeping to the walking track, we decided to just climb up the steep hills. uber fun!) mount victoria in devonport. beautiful day it was!

so high up you can see the curve of the earth! that's jacklyn (who shares an uncanny resemblence to ling nie) , from penang!

The beauty myth : Naomi Wolf

2009-07-20T04:17:00.000-07:00

Currently reading : The beauty myth. Just 20 pages in, and im already stopping to step back and digest the information slowly - because it is that mindblowing.

Well, that's if you're a feminist. But i got my bubble burst, because seriously, no one is really spared. As long as makeup, weight , heels and cute clothes are involved - women still dont have complete freedom.

If you're thinking that it's a choice to dress up? Guess what? The media has bent your thinking into it is totally your choice. Read it, and think again.

And then again, it's a contradiction, because women now are rejoicing their bodies WITH makeup, a good figure , heels and cute clothes. Either that the thinking has been definitely altered with.

HMM??

Finally, a book im going to read till the end.

cheers.

oh noes!

2009-07-17T23:45:00.000-07:00

Currently watching Royal Pains - a medical related series, because ive been deprived of House m.d. so much, i need something to fill in while the next season gets aired.]

Not like Royal Pains can come close to being as great as House m.d. .

But woe is me, as i just learnt that next season is airing on the 21st of sep.

D:<

[edit] Royal pains = very lame. OKay. Not SO lame. But if you adore House like i do, this series is mediocre. Hank Lawson , the main character in this series, is smart and humble. That's just boring. I wouldnt be watching it if it wasnt for the ridiculously hot cast in the show. 4/10.

ai, do the bamboo

2009-07-16T03:45:00.000-07:00

Only one paper left. Geography. Last paper. geo is ALWAYS the last paper or something. =.= And guess what? It weighs 30% instead of the 5% or 10% the other papers are. two and a half hours.

ZZZ. Be burning the midnight oil tonight!

miss you guys back home btw.

durhurr exams

2009-07-10T17:44:00.000-07:00

NO updates anytime soon. just here to say that, statistics suck.

BIg time.

Phone call scare

2009-07-08T22:27:00.000-07:00

I swore i couldve pissed in my pants when i got this particular phone call from this particular person. No it was michael jackson. If it was, i would be up there with him.

I cant say who or what, because people actually read this blog and i dont want that person to know. But i swear. It has scared me enough to reset most of the things i needed resetting.

BUt that was only for a moment. I was shaking. Then i realised, it was actually a wake up call. Goodthing eh? Yes. Plus a dear friend of mine even told me she'd give me a wake up call too. She's all the way in the states. (how sweet!)

It's all good really. i just need to set somethings straight. And i'll be back on my feet - ready to conquer the exams next week. =) *okay, not conquer. just... sit for*

OMGOMGOMG.

2009-07-08T21:09:00.000-07:00

Our love will never end, waiting for the soldier to come back again. Never more to be alone. When a letter said, a soldier's coming home.

Two days past eighteen. He was waiting for the bus in his army green. Sat down in a booth, the cafe there. Gave his orders to a girl with a bow in her hair.

He's a little shy so she gives him a smile. And he said, "Would you mind sitting down for a while and talk to me? Im feeling a little low."

She said, "Im off in an hour and i know where we can go."

So they went down and sat on the pier. "I betcha got a boyfriend but i dont care, i got no one. To send a letter to.

Would you mind if i send one back here to you?"

So the letters came from an army camp. In california then vietnam. And he told her of his heart might be loving all the things he was so scared of. He said, "When it's getting kinda rough over here, I think of that day sittin down on the pier. And i close my eyes and see your pretty smile.

Dont worry but i wont be able to write for a while."

One Friday night at a football game. The Lord's Prayer said and the Anthem sang. A man said "Folks, would you bow your heads for a list of local - Vietnam dead."

Crying all alone under the stands. Was a piccolo player in the marching band. And one name read but nobody really cared.

But a pretty little girl, with a bow in her head.

I cried. Never gonna hold the hand of another guy. Too young for him they told her, waiting for the love of a traveling soldier. Our love will never end, waiting for the soldier to come back again. Never more to be alone.

When a letter said, a soldier's coming home.

RIP Michael Jackson

2009-07-07T20:25:00.001-07:00

Sure, i'm a little slow. Actually i didnt even plan on doing a post on him - but after watching his memorial service at the Staples center in LA at 5am, and listening to all those eulogies by close family and friends, i cant help but to.

Now, i'm not going to pretend that his music played a significant part in ALL chapters of my short 18 years of life so far - but i DID grow up listening to his songs, and there's ONE particular song from him that i will NEVER forget. Because it holds so much meaning for me and every one else who knew Aaron. (and plus Aaron ~~loved~~ idolized MJ.)

And in this post, you'll see why im so convinced that there will be no such icon as large as Michael, and that he's a bigger man than what the media have portrayed him.

RIP Michael Jackson

29th August 1958 - 25th June 2009

First off, i dreamt about him when i slept this morning after watching the memorial which ended at 7.45am. (haha, arent i lucky getting a visit from the king of pop in my dreams) Nothing unusual really. We talked like old buddies walking along a street, chatting away. Then when we came to a corner, he walked off and disappeared.

Pretty metaphorical if you ask me. Then i realised that MJ was a great being, a great friend to anyone lucky enough to know him personally. Brooke Shields. Her speech compromised of "giggling" and calling Michael mischievious and stating that he was a great caring person. Very human - and never being a diva about anything. Magic Johnson shared a bucket of KFC with him on the floor -laughing. And he actually cared for his fans. Elizabeth taylor - she was one of the

people wayyyy at the back of one of his concerts, couldnt hear much or see much, so she left the concert halfway. Michael was informed about that and he called her up,crying, and apologized. The proceeded to talk for the next 3 hours.

I dont know any other star this day who would do that.

And when he came to Auckland years ago, one lady on the auckland team said that when he arrived to the hotel, instead of dashing to the lift and to his suite, he stopped and greeted everyone on the staff and giggling while kicking the balloons that covered the entire lobby floor.

He was a great being- he's in the Guinness Book of Records for giving most to charities over the world. He called up Coretta Scott King (Mrs Martin Luther King Jr) when she was ill in bed, all the way from the middle east- told her that he was praying for her and asked her if she had music in her room. She smiled, and according to her daughter, "Her whole face smiled."

That was just to name a few. If you watched the memorial, you know you cant get the image of Paris boldly standing up to the mic, telling the whole world that her daddy was the best, then later crying into Janet's arms. You know you'll never forget that.

MICHAEL jackson. You just have to talk about his music. It was epic! Highest selling album of all time. And Not one of his songs are bad. NOT ONE. (not like i know all, but if he was to have a lousy track, i would've heard of it) Each one was a masterpiece, and some had messages. Powerful messages that, successfully bring people from all over together. Songs about change for the world, starting with the person in the mirror.

He didn just make music. He made history. He broke down the racial divide. He made it possible for all african americans to do what they can today on the world's stage. Because of his music, all his beloved fans can stand united. Without a doubt, he has started the process of healing the world through his music. it's our job to continue that.

The white sequinned glove. The toe stand. The tilted fedoras. The military outfits. The MOON WALK. No other celebrity/icon can leave such an impression on the world.

And im sure no other celebrity can create a media stir like he can. lol. I could remember that time he held Blanket over the balcony and the time he had more plastic surgery or whatever. His going white- hoho, boy can the haters attack. Saying that he wasnt proud of being black. Personally, i felt that he was just trying to make a point. Starting with himself - like he said. No matter if he's black or white, he's still human, he's still breathing, he's still singing, he's still caring. He's still, the ultimate entertainer, Michael Jackson.

So with all this, i truly believe that there will be no icon as large as this. Some reporter said that we cant compare, like how we cant compare anyone to Elvis Presly, we cant compare anyone to Michael Jackson because it's all different. It's true, i agree. But Michael Jackson - was EPIC. IN EVERY SENSE.

his music - EPIC.

his trademarks - EPIC.

his passion to bring the world together - EPIC.

the tabloids. - EPIC.

His love for his fans - EPIC.

His influence on the world - EPIC.

Michael Jackson ~~was~~ IS EPIC. He'll live on as the ultimate entertainer , till the end of time. which i believe with every inch of me.

Im that type to believe that in time, anything could happen. Anything. Anything like , another icon might rise and knock the white socks of Michael. BUT not this time. To me he's the ULTIMATE. Untouched. God bless MJ. (and if there IS a rising star, boy, does he/she have a frikkin tall order)

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"Smile though your heart is aching" Michael's fav song. And when Brooke Shields told everyone to smile eventhough their hearts were aching, she tried to smile herself. That was the hardest thing to watch, ever. Because losing a great friend is never easy.

ps. Cried mad when heal the world played. It has been 3 months. Happy moonwalking with the king up there, Aaron.

ps.s. Race obviously meant nothing to him. He is my idol for making that clear for millions over the world.

new header up!

2009-07-03T05:05:00.000-07:00

I'll post the finished full body version of that picture soon. There's something about the face that i dont like,. but i rather not point it out to myself, because ive spent a good amount of time on it and dont feel like being a failure at the moment. :D

and random eye drawing so this post dont seem as redundant as it is.

It's hard

2009-06-30T20:23:00.000-07:00

For over a week now, ive been sleeping at 4am and waking at 2 pm. and no matter how hard i try to break that circle, it just wont.

>.>

Sometimes i even get insomnia at 4 when i try to sleep. D: horror. I even tried to take a 6 hour nap so i'd wake around 9-10 to renew my cycle. (also, i was suppose to get a bunch of books from college to study during this holiday, which is soon coming to its end.)

Btw, any nice songs to share with me? Im getting very sick of my recent playlist.

facebook = friendster?

2009-06-29T22:12:00.000-07:00

Last week or so, i had a notification on facebook- an invite from someone to join some group, telling that after inviting at least fifty of your contacts, you have a tracker of somesort, like friendster, to tell who has been viewing your profile.

And today, i saw on the highlight area (right hand column), around 12 from my list joined this group.

Group named "Colour your facebook profile - invite all your friends". They have over 230k members.

Sure, now you get to personalise your facebook background. Later, you can customise your fonts on your page. Soon, your cursors turn into pink unicorns when you stumble across an aquaintance's page. NOW, doesnt that just sound oh too familiar?

Friendster.

One of the reasons why i left FS:

Weirdos/Pervs can send you messages like these. If im not mistaken Facebook allows you to tweak your settings, only allowing friends to send you messages. Im not too sure about friendster though. (too lazy to do any research for now)

Main point is, i dont want to see facebook turn into the next friendster. I love the plain professional blue and white. I dont really mind personalised backgrounds, but one thing always leads to another. And as for getting notifications for who has viewed your profile? I really dont want to know who has been stalking me *perasan* ~~(or people finding out i've been stalking them)~~.

Facebook is NOT friendster.

Let it stay that way please.

ZUMBA!

2009-06-26T22:57:00.000-07:00

You know how ive kept posting about how i always want to learn how to latin dance? And how much i want to exercise?

Well,i was sitting on my fat ass watching tv 3 in the morning at samantha's place muching away on bak gua and cging one of my lineart when the programme on tv switches to paid informercials.

And then the answer to my solution popped up.

ZUMBA.

As the poster says, ditch the workout and join the party.

It's a latin fitness program and it is the new thing. "Zumba® fuses hypnotic latin rhythms and easy to follow moves to create a dynamic fitness program that will blow you away."

basically, you're dancing to latin music burning calories and toning your body while you're at it.

Exercising wont seem like a chore anymore!

To me, it's a godsent, because it fuses two of the things ive been dreading to do/learn. And plus if you saw the informercial yourself, you'd be at the edge of your seat. Plus, the success testimonials are so amazing, you just have to give this a try - by going online to ~~illegally download their videos~~ purchase their DVDS. Because it's impossible to go to their crazy booked workshops (which are held in the US).

I found out there's a ZUMBA in KL. D: none in kuching.(someone start one pls)

So, if you want to find out more, click here.

i had a dream

2009-06-26T04:18:00.000-07:00

and decided to draw something. lol.

ok.. smaller than expected. Im taking my time cging this one. i dont like how the face has turned up.

CS4 = <3

More twilight bashing

2009-06-22T18:27:00.000-07:00

because i~~m bored~~ can.

i have a feeling that this bashing will become more of a habit.

maybe it's time to make a tag for it.

...

nah.

it belongs where it is. the rubbish entries.

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lolcat/ loldog.

I'm addicted. I check it everyday along with Deviantart,

FB, FML and

Perez.

It's a daily routine. It makes me feel like...

i'm capable of being constant.

Thank Annachuu~

2009-06-21T22:00:00.000-07:00

without you i wouldnt be happily using my tablet now. <3

And i just recently downloaded photoshop CS4. Yes, that's right. cs4. My CS2 refused to work, so instead of fixing the problem,i upgraded myself. :)

The only downside is it's kinda laggy. But then i realised that the file i was working on was MASSIVE.

So i decided to give it a go, and to get used to the compatibiliy between my beloved wacom graphire and this new lappie.

So a quick colour of my header. Nothing fancy. was really quick. I dont have much patience anyways. And the nose is weird and mj - like. Meh.

I think im going to play around with photoshop a while longer. =P

Term break

2009-06-19T23:46:00.000-07:00

First day of term break and i'm already rotting from the boredom. There's so much to do, like study, clean my toilet, etc - but i cant be effed to do any of those. I need entertainment of somesort.

Mini updates:

Im currently using a new laptop. Long story. Point is, i cant use my tablet, because my tablet driver is all the way in kuching. So even when diligence and inspiration strikes, i'll have to resort to my beloved traditional media. Bad part is i cant post it up online. Dont have a scanner. (there's one in the art room at college tho..)

*sigh*

Missing all of you back home. This shouldnt be an update, because you all know that. <3>ehugs and ekisses for all!

*sigh*

ARIZONA! C: tee hee :insertgiggleiconhere:. How i wish to go there. <3>

*sigh*

It's tiring to keep up with an infatuation isnt it? Sien liau. Gonna give up on this one - for now.

*sigh*

winter~! Cold. But past few days have been moderate. I keep my heater on longer than i should. I'm too malaysian to adjust myself quick enough to the seasonal weather they have here.

*sigh*

exercise. *SIGH*

*sigh*

i need new songs on my ipod. Have over a thousand, but only the stupid mainstream pop songs play when on shuffle. grr.

*sigh*

Gonna use this time to learn spanish. Just bought a spanish-english dictionary. Hope this pays off. Btw, anyone know a dance studio in kuching that offers latin dances? If you do, PLEASE PLEASE TELL ME POR FAVOR. I am desperate to know if there's one. Gracias. :)

*sigh*

I'm using the *sigh*s to seperate the updates, well because im bored. Like pure boredom. Distilled over and over again for the finest feel of boredom.

Oh mon dieu. save me. *sigh*

since i enjoy art classes so much..

2009-06-11T23:53:00.000-07:00

And i've been learning tonnes since i've arrived - i'd like to share em with you! That includes a new tag. ~~coz i have nothing better to do - actually, i do.. i'm just lazy~~

Behold! That effect that Mac's Photobooth (whatever it's called) gives you.. that multicoloured and mutliframed effect. I'm sure you all know what type of art this is.

If you do, you should also know who came up with it. *if you do, good for you!*

Andy warhol,

ladies and gents! The father of pop art.

This guy ushered in a whole new movement, creating works of vivid coloured art using big pop icons and everyday products.

Yep, he's they guy that silk-screened Marilyn Monroe's face.

.. and campbell's soup.

ANDY WARHOL - bow b*tches.

I AM!

2009-06-09T18:13:00.000-07:00

a size ten / twelve!

jeng jeng jeng.

size twelve butt mind you.

I recently had an epiphany.. about my size/weight/build whatever you want to call it.

I AM FAT. NO ohnoes smileys and sad faces after. I have accepted that i am flabby here and there, not because i am unmotivated to exercise, or lazy to - but because im somewhat comfortable in my own skin. FINALLY.

If you're reading this and think i need assurance that i'm otherwise, well, thanks. But i am really comfy with how i look right now. :) i'm squishy and huggable too! HAHA. For my height and bone structure (i found out that i actually have a smaller body frame than initially thought), i am .. OVERWEIGHT. jeng jeng jeng. That, perhaps, is the only thing that drives me to exercise. NOT solely because i want to attract ppl a lean body - because i am totally for the fact that real women have curves. *america ferrera ftw!*

I'm not saying im going to binge whenever i desire. I am going to start regular exercises *i already did, but on hold because mom's luggage is sitting on my exercise space* <--excuses ehem , after my mom returns to kuching, just to keep fit and to remind myself that going obese isnt any more of a healthy option than being stick thin (not like i can).

*shit i lost my train of thought*

I'm telling you now, that i am confident the way i am - maybe it's just a result of giving up exercise and healthy eating. Sure it sounds unhealthy.. but im actually eating apples for lunch =.= ok. this is going nowhere. :P

Size ten models. Still fab.

Ok. I've spent a good amount of time staring at those models. They are gorgeous! You just need the right clothes. HAHA. :B

I LOVE MY OWN BODY.

question is, do you love yours

and p.s.

I rock the parakeet hair hard. HAHA.

I've never felt this confident in a while. Took this and didnt photoshp it one bit. :D

doesnt include the scribbles lah.

*had this hairstyle before rihanna did recently, so dont assume that im copying her, tho i dont mind.*

What ive been busy with

2009-06-07T04:55:00.000-07:00

Art subject for this course is lots of hard work.

But i feckin enjoy doing it.

Im doing figures, and narrowed down to beauty/

ideal beauty/ cultural practices etc.

What better way than to start with the corset.

sketched this during econs.

got told off. =S

refining sketch phase!

ink on paper. im gonna have to add more to it.

Done on compressed saw. Woodcutting is harder than it looks. D=

If you noticed, the person IS actually getting thinner and thinner.

;( not suppose to . oh well.

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Just a quick update.

Went out with aunts, uncle etc etc today. I've gotten chubbier! Yes i have. Note to self: have to stop binging when bored.

I know i constantly claim that im going back to kuching fitter and stuff. I'm working on that. And here comes the reason, it's winter. I can't help it. ;P

Here's the proof to my chubbiness.

And proof that even my cousin (mind you, ive never met her before this) thinks im nuts.

Actually, proof that im not exaggerating my stories when i tell you that strangers on the

streets give me this look...

have a nice day :)

ps. I'm taking doxycycline for my acne (got worse since i came here) , does anyone know if it's one of those "gets worse before getting better" thing? Coz i've been on it for a few days now, and more pimples are erupting. Maybe it's just clearing out? UGH.

icanhazcheezburger

2009-06-05T16:10:00.000-07:00

when you're bored,

visit this site.

icanhascheezburger.c0m

Very entertaining lol. Navigate around for hours.

Bad thing was, i discovered this page when i actually had tonnes of

assignment due. :P me <--idiot

I picked some of my favs from the lolcelebs section;

and here it is!

Starting off with some twilight bashing. :B

... and some celebs..

*stare*

And this one made me LOL so hard i almost peed.

and your daily dose of feminism. :D

LOL.

A few updates

2009-05-31T15:24:00.000-07:00

It's been over a month since you left us. People are still leaving comments on your FB's wall. It feels good that you're still around us. I miss you sooo much :)

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Update

numero uno: It's the first of June today. That means renewal of bus fares. Guess what?
Bo lui. T__T What im gonna do now? Hohoho.

numero dos: I have an art assignment due on wednesday. Good thing is, i am on a roll!
Downside? I need more pictures to stick on my folio pages, but no printer.

numero tres: I'm being stressed out by certain things, but i know better than to let it bother me. Because i'm liddat. harhar. Still, i need to vent it out, just not now, not with everyone reading this blog *my relatives read this too, how they found out about this, till today i've no idea*

numero cuatro: I'm thinking of switching my blog name to something else, either that making
private or something. related to number 3. Hmm. :P

numero cinco: I am going to dive into the spanish language!! ok.. not much of an update.

numero sies: I miss Aaron. ;(

Mom's chasing me off to follow relatives to city centre. Yes, that's number siete, Mom's in auckland. for two whole weeks.

Adios mi amigo <3

I CANT

2009-05-23T03:37:00.000-07:00

CURB MY SPENDING PROBLEM!!! HELP ME.D=

im so serious. SO lost. If anyone of you have ever had experience in successfully controlling your spending, please, i beg you - give me pointers. i need it bad.

Itty bitty little things

2009-05-18T13:39:00.000-07:00

One way to tick me off is to challenge my knowlegde of my best friend of over a decade. In the early morning.

so, DONT.

Ps. yeah. silly fbers.

Friends for sale bonanza

2009-05-10T00:36:00.000-07:00

*pictures refuses to upload! No pictures post.*

What's up with this FFS craze?

All i remember is buying most of my unwanted friends *unwanted no more* , and then suddenly,

everyone is buying everyone else.

HAHA.

Dont get me wrong.. i love this game.

It somewhat boosts your self esteem when your value increases,

and makes you feel rich and powerful when you own someone.

But the best part is...

when you've been addicted to that Facebook application longer than the rest,

they come to you and grovel,

begging you to buy them,..

giving reasons like, "I dont want that siau char bo to own me"

or "i dont want so and so to own me"..

it just makes you feel so AWESOME.

*coz the rest seems so pathetic. - I'm kidding. *

JUST SAY THT YOU WANT TO FEEL MORE VALUABLE LAH.

welcome back to the early 50s

2009-05-09T01:48:00.000-07:00

"When the moon hits your eye like a big pizza pie

That's amore

When the world seems to shine like you've had too much wine

That's amore

Bells will ring ting-a-ling-a-ling, ting-a-ling-a-ling

And you'll sing "Vita Bella"

Hearts will play tippy-tippy-tay, tippy-tippy-tay

Like a gay *KEKEKHEHEHKEKE* tarantella

When the stars make you drool just like a pasta fagiole

That's amore

When you dance down the street with a cloud at your feet

You're in love

When you walk in a dream but you know you're not

Dreaming signore

Scuzza me, but you see, back in old Napoli

That's amore"

gotta love this song.

JOO, it's worser than i thought it was!!

ughhgh

2009-05-07T01:04:00.000-07:00

it's horrible when you're missing two people at the same time so badly (yeah i sound like a ho) , and you have a test to cram for. D=

ps. thanks to FFS on FB, i miss you all back in kuching, muy terribly.

HEY HEY

2009-04-29T04:30:00.001-07:00

I've been busy, that's why no updates till now. i know that's a mount of bs. haha. Initially i wanted to just upload lots of pictures, but some how blogger was being really mean so i gave up.

I'm doing fine here. Honestly, i love this place - reminds me of kuching. Not a lot of places to go out to (there's more, but i dont bother), crazy as friends *talking like a kiwi already* , and an extended family to make me feel at home.

But, of course - I LOVE YOU GUYS WAY TOO MUCH. I MISS YOU ALL. ='(

and it's good to see people getting back on their feet after what happened.

Here's a printscreen *omg that reminds me of silk screen printing.. which i need to do for art.. which i am suppose to be doing now..* of me and a turkish friend of mine who is in love with me. No joke. Details only to those close people. haha.

HAhah my hair. i love it. haha. Trying to look like im thinking. Intellectual, ya know?

ok, gotta get on with my daily routine and shower and stuff.

Good luck to my joojooboo for the model search *you'll squish them like ants*, and mostly, my one and only fwish with her nursing training *sorry if i got it wrong* at singapore, and my VERY MISSED jc with his hair. LOVE YOU MUCH.

And if youre reading this, shirley, i miss you too. LIKE, A LOT. *so you better send me something very soon.* hahah . joke. ILU.

A few more hours to go

2009-04-10T17:29:00.000-07:00

I'm sitting here, staring at the clock.

I'm wearing my 5A shirt. =)

In a few more hours,...

....cant bear to think about it.

You know i want to be there for you very badly.

Very badly.. but i cant.

Thoughts and prayers all the way from Auckland.

Forever in our memory.

Aaron Teo

(1991 - 2009)

08.04.09

2009-04-09T04:20:00.000-07:00

Aaron Teo.

Uncle,we promised that we'd catch up when i get back to kuching in december.

It's only been a few months we all grew apart. But that didnt stop you from talking to those overseas

in your spare time.

Remember how determined you were to keep the class together?

You never gave up.

I knew you since we were in kindy.

We ended secondary school together.

That's really long...

Primary 6, Camp permai. You were up to your mischief.

Something you did that's burned into my memory.

Form 3, You had me making a nice box for a gift you were going to give Nore.

I was amazed at how much you felt for her.

I'm still amazed that you two stuck together for years.

I'm heartbroken to try to even think how she feels now.

I'm upset that i'm not there with the rest back in kuching.

I'm depressed when i know that im not going to be there this saturday.

You know how people say that they're glad to have you play a role in their lives?

You didnt just play a role in our lives,

you shape the people we are today.

Thank you.

I'm still crying and trying to swallow this piece of news, uncle.

Disbelief for the time to come, that you're gone; only because you live forever in our memories.

RIP

Aaron Teo

08.04.09

uncle, i'll keep my side of the promise. When i get back to kuching.

Ohhh

2009-03-17T15:11:00.000-07:00

Guys, when i get back to kuching, i have soooo much to tell you. =)

And remember this, retarded indian girl, because im gonna be using that so frequently, your heads are going to burst. HAHAH.

Love you guys.

ps fwish i miss you crazy!!

Im trying

2009-03-10T01:04:00.000-07:00

Im trying to post up a full picture post, but blogger is a bytch when it comes to uploading pictures.

so geram.

Distress

2009-02-27T20:08:00.001-08:00

i am gonna be forced to stay in that creepy a room in 3 days time.

please, mom. i beg you. i'd rather be one of those hobos sleeping on the park bench outside aotea centre, freeze myass off ,get gangrene in my toes and constantly beg people for food and money than sleep in that room for the next ten months.

it's not that bad. but it's the first time i've felt so creeped out about something.

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spm results. D=

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two pages of art instead of the usual one this weekend. Lost the brush i've been working with. Art shop closed on the weekends.

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Retarded indian shouting the name hatim every moment.

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having to sleep in that room.

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help!

100th post will be,

2009-02-23T00:44:00.000-08:00

~~unreadable.~~ annoying to read

*inhales*icrazymissallofyouguysbackinkuchingandwhereeveryouguysareimsittingherewearingmy5a

tshirtwantingtocrywhilereminiscingaboutallthesiautimesandthesiautimestocomeiadmitnowimissevery

singlethingabout5aevensclub7andmosesandwaynebutyouguysknowwhoaretheonesthatreallyhadmade

ahugeimpactonmeiloveyouguysseriously*catches breath*andicanlaughandcryatthesametimeevery

secondithinkaboutthisparticularbunchofhomosapiensthatcolourmylifeincrappyshitcolourswhichmeans

somuchtomethananyonecanevertrytofathom*pause*okayiamalsoadmittingimissmyfamilybutnotasmuch

becauseiwebcamwiththemwhenevertheyfeellikeitandeventhoughimcrazybusywithartandstuffbutyou

guysknowiloveyoulikemadtypinglikethisdeterioratesenglishbecauseyoucanhardlytellwhatyou'retyping

andiwillendherejustwannatypemoretomakeitlookcool*exhales*

what a waste of a milestone.

Sunday Morning

2009-02-21T12:21:00.000-08:00

Moved into the room next door. The previous room i stayed in was nice and cosy. the top bunk bed was soft and the comforter was just fluffly enough. There's a nice long mirror on the table, where i put all my lotions and makeup. The room was just a mess. but it was 'warm'.

Last night was the first night i slept in the new room. COLD. not temperature-wise. it's just 'cold'.

That room has a nice bouncy queen sized bed (only nice thing), but otherwise it's just cold. my uncle is an avid collector of chinese vases and stuff like that, and so he stores all of them in that room on shelves. and there's one item that really creeps me. a porcelian(?) china doll. skin crawling stuff. (it's on a shelf, sight blocked by another shelf full of vintage books from my bed)

The room had no mirror. even though i initially wanted to get one, i gave that thought up. last night, as tired as i was, i put off going to sleep.

i couldnt get the image of the porcelian thing out of my head. and it's always hard to sleep in a new room *makes it harder when they're antique stuff everwhere, makes you think where they came from*.

And when i got to sleep - guess what? A nightmare/dream. I'm not comfortable posting this up here. *no, i did not dream of my own death.8 Anyways, when i woke up, i thought about it. ..

... i might just move to samantha's apartment earlier than i thought i would. (mind you, sharing a bed with her is horrid. She moves a few inches towards your side every minute and soon you'll be sprawled on the floor and stomping off to the living room couch to get a night's rest.)

How do you differenciate an art student from the crowd?

2009-02-15T21:44:00.000-08:00

A: Their eyebags are much more obvious and they sit there staring at the wall.

Not even funny. D=s

HELP

2009-02-13T13:12:00.000-08:00

I have a hamsap for a geography teacher!

hmm

2009-02-09T01:27:00.000-08:00

why is it everytime im stressed, and supposed to do something else..i come up with the motivation to draw something?

the timing cant be any perfect. >. >

A cute guy with an awesome smile playing with a fwuffy kitty in an orange shirt. *what more can i ask for <3>

joo, i need to cuddle your kitty now. D=

p.s. fck i've fallen in like with someone. D= cant stop thinking!

your man, is still a man!

2009-02-07T21:52:00.001-08:00

ok lah. not man. But you know, the manly essence of sarah has not faded.

from left: juliana - brazil, man - catcity, jasmine - china, felicia *whom i stole this pic frm* - KL

we're the bunch who you can almost always find in the art room. there's another chinese, Ying, but she wasnt there to camwhore with us.

btw, those two actually doing work, researching on the comps, are like.. twentyone [i think]. omgwtfbbq. the other two are waiting for spm results.

i wanted to post something up last night, but srsly, blogger was being bitchy. D=

i'll give it another go tonight.

*btw, ive yet to see those endangered kiwi birds*

Hello!

2009-02-02T21:53:00.000-08:00

well, i guess some of you want to know how my week's been here in auckland. Initially, iwanted to do day by day recap, but i totally forgot. i assure you, there were pretty embarrassing moments.

anyhoo, the flight to auckland via brunei was horrible. Not so horrible, i just cant stand long flights. I hate flying now. if it's first class that's another story. =D

This big burly man sat next to me. He's nice and all, but - BIG. HUGE. his arm was invading my space. But i kinda pity him coz he knows very well that he's big , and kept his arms in one position most of the time. (shown in the illustration)

Right.

School started a week ago. Missed the orientation and one day of class. I've only 5 periods a day, i stay around 7 and a half hours in school, two free.

And did i mention that art class is AWESOME? Tho it's vague what i have to do.. i looove my class. The art room is the art students' haven. We can eat in there, do work - anything. (not suppose to eat in those rooms, but the teacher is awesome)

She looks like that. I swear. And she's really forgetful. =) She does that alot.

i <3 Art class!

oh, here's my english teacher. Malcolm. He's , like samantha always say, gay. He's sooo gay. Happy gay. He's just toooo happy. =D he smiles so much he has wrinkles near his eyes.

uh. imma just post another entry.

heheh.

It's my 4th day here

2009-01-30T18:18:00.000-08:00

I'm still too tired. Lethargic even. I feel sleep every minute of everyday. =.= but i cant just decide to nap or something.

so that mean i'll be updating tomorrow. I just finally settled in college, made a bank account, and tomorrow morning i'll be getting a library card. So many important things to lug around. D=

anyhoo, played badminton with my cousin June's friends. Reminded me of swak club times, when jesse and i would play badminton and sweat like hell and get too tired to study properly for spm. *sigh*

btw, on of my cousin's friend is sot sot one. She reminded me instantly of all my friends. =(

shit, i need crazy laughing now.

If you're wondering why im missing my friends more than i miss my family, the reason is.. my aunt cooks like my mom. somewhat. yeah. but i miss everyone equally.

puut. OH i get to watch Le Grand Cirque tomorrow! free tickets!! AWESOME.

i miss you!!

I miss you , you and you!

2009-01-26T20:57:00.000-08:00

Homg, im at the brunei airport now. Just saying i miss you guys like mad.

And, thank you jesse. I love you soo much for it!

I'll update later when im bored. Imma check some stuff online first, and then do some window shopping and get bored and update again. =.=

love you all.

zomg

2009-01-26T09:45:00.001-08:00

i am exhausted. Lots of angpau and sincere wishes. Pissed mommy off. =( things packed by mommy and sis. =(( Guilty. =((( Disorientation from lack of sleep. Cant sleep. Not sure of what i'm feeling. Doesnt have a calculator. Dont know what the note left above my bed meant. Missing my family already. Scared of responsibilities. Terrified of boredom from having to stay 7 frickin hours at the brunei airport. Happy from spending time with friends. Guilty and upset for not doing so with family. Grateful for Skype. Disappointed with oovoo. Needing more sleep.

good night. =(

Leaving

2009-01-24T07:04:00.000-08:00

I'll be leaving on the 2nd day of CNY.

Will be alone in flight. T__T hope i've things to do. (Harass the airsteward, annoy person sitting to my left, doodle on the airsickness bag....*sigh*)

I'm not feeling anything yet, the homesickness wont happen till im actually there.

Watching..

2009-01-20T09:32:00.000-08:00

the inauguration

Barack Obama.

Truly, today is historical. And i'll be losing sleep to etch this moment in history

into my mind.

Now, im just waiting for the change the world so badly needs.

Mien, i miss you!

2009-01-19T07:09:00.000-08:00

Last week on the 15th, Joo, Fwish, Mien, Fion and I went to club to have a 'photoshoot' for Joo's green theme. *go green!*

Thanks to JOO i got to handle a Canon EOS 350D. <3

thank youu!

We had a great time! Havent had one in a looong time. And the 'photoshoot'

went better than expected, eventhough i was raining/ drizzling.

I took the photos. Joo, mien and fion are my models. keke

And decided to try my hands on photoediting. I think i overdid it.

just a wee bit. *dont mind the mini watermark.* [but all pictures belong to their respective owners]

Mien's such a poser.

I have others to work on. Hopefully, it'll turn out better.

New obsession new obsession

2009-01-17T07:44:00.000-08:00

ED WESTWICK is BRITISH!

he's so perfect.

19th Jan

2009-01-12T18:57:00.000-08:00

As you all know, (if you guys have been paying attention) the next episode of house will be airing in the States on the 19th this month, which takes an extra week or so to be uploaded somewhere for me to watch.

I've been waiting so long D: it's torture. So i knew i had to occupy myself with another series so that the wait doesnt seem too unbearable.

So i took my brother's hard drive and started watching Gossip Girl! YES. I have jumped on the bandwagon! (there were other choices but i decided to give GG a go.)

I've watched around 6 episode and as far as i watched - i think Chace Crawford, who playes Nathaniel Archibald *oh what a name*, is WAY TOO KEN-LIKE. Sorry to burst your bubbles girls/guys, but i think his character is the most predictable/boring/yawn-inducing one EVER. SURE, he's crazy hot, and he's perfect looking - but perfect looking doesnt mean interesting. He's a piece of eye candy. A piece that starts losing its taste after a few minutes.

But it's ok, since every drama needs their Ken to make the whole picture pretty. Like House, we have Jesse Spencer playing a cute Aussie doctor.

*since nate isnt an interesting character, who do you find interesting then?*

- i cant say much. I've only watched 6 eps. But for sure, that chuck guy~ is sure something of a person. He's like a very hormonal chihuahua looking out for things to dry hump. Surely, that's more interesting than pretty boy secretly still likes his girl's bestie - as if we didnt see it coming.

*Whaii?? Whai dyou dislike nate so much? he's such a hottie*drools* *

- I dont dislike him, i just dislike his airtime C: He IS hot. But he's like a .. a billboard advertisement. You look, you ooh and ahh then you continue with your journey to wherever. Chuck, on the other hand, is like a tv commercial. It looks a little peculiar, but it does its job of capturing your attention and a plus, it's animated , ergo, more interesting.

*Chuck bass looks like someone dropped him on his face when he was an infant. He sleeps with women and kicks them away after! He's a spoilt kid! nate - oh nate, he's sooo much better than chuck.. handsome, atheletic, hot, sensitive *swoons* *

- HELLO!? You're watching gossip girl! Blablabla -manhattan's elite! Chuck is like an epitome of teenagers from the elite class . We WANT to know about their lives *as portrayed by hollywood producers*, and Charles Bass is something we'd like to observe - how a young man, the son of a multi billionare, uses his ever ready cash to get to things he wants. Nate. Nate is handsome, and sensitive, and really hot/perfect and etcetera. Doesnt he remind you of another 'perfect' and cliched figure? *coughedwardcullencough* We have way too much of those.

Since i dont have a clue where this will lead me, i shall end it here. I've things to do..*polyvores*.

I cant blend!

2009-01-08T20:25:00.000-08:00

Tried to do some cg practise again. I just CANT blend properly. Im just too impatient.

holy crap didnt realise it'll turn out that big.

It seems as though she's has some skin complications or something. I really have to learn to take my time when im cging. T___T

Movie mania

2009-01-03T07:09:00.000-08:00

In between getting things listed and done, ive been doing nothing except - like i said, eat sleep and something new, watching downloaded movies!

So i finally watched Sisterhood of the travelling pants, both installments. And oh boyy do i miss all me besties. ;)

And the thing about that show is that all the men in there are simply gorgeous!

Leonardo Nam - azn cutie. He plays a nerdish gamer by the name of

brian Mcbrian. But hoHO. This gamer has a killer bod. Like, a seriously killer bod.

Jesse Williams. He plays Leo, a live figure model and an artist. Amazing body, and the best part is his eyes. It's just sooo ~ dreamy~

Michael Rady plays a greek! OPA! a crazy sexy one. The movie features quite a lot of romance,

which is a genre i dont exactly fancy. But when i watched the scenes between his

character and Lena (Alexis Bedel) i just want one like him.

~~I am lonely.~~

I'm just picky.

Tom Wisdom! If you just felt like you saw him somewhere,

you're probably right. Have you been watching 300 lately?

He's the son of the captain, the one that got beheaded by some

horseback persian.

He is soo juicy.

Sadly i check back into reality very often. It ruins everything.

BTW, pierce brosnan is still the sexiest on my list. He's reaching 60 in a few years time. And he still looks that good!

Second would be Josh Hartnett.

I'm sure some of you can see a pattern forming. Yes, i have this thing for men who has those squinted looking eyes. Like as if they suffer from light sensitivity. A disorder never looked so good.

I had a crush on this ex-lodgian, his eyes were squinted too! He grew tubby at one point, and i just saw him the other day. UMPH can you say yummy?!

This post is crazy pointless. I think i just need a companion of some sort.

I think i'll neutralise this post later. *yes, women.*

It's almost the new year.

2008-12-29T21:56:00.000-08:00

2009!

Less than 3 days till 2009.

Fresh new start!

But before we move on, lets reminisce one last time for the year about the past.

*i was finding a nice wallpaper for my phone, so i went through my images. I still couldnt find a suitable one, but i got soo inspired to do this little trip down memory lane. You'll see pictures that i never thought i'll be posting, mainly because i didnt like how i look. It's all different now, hence this post.*

Form 3! I think this is the only picture of us three together.

Cheesy, but - bffs forever mang!

Form 5 (no duh) last few sessions of PE. Girl's pyramid. It was awesome!

me being the man, I was of course, base.

GOING FOR 5 LEVELS! Jocelyn, i am still ticked off you didnt finish it off!!

D=<

But thanks 5a, for some of the greatest moments eva!

4 levels! Easy peasy. But Ambrose wouldnt shuddup and goyang a lot.

AHAH. ohmang. i miss your mischief in Cikgu Lily's class.

Another girls' pyramid.

Alex being a perv hoping somehow alyssa will land on him.

LOOK moses enjoys it too!

OH. This is one of the highlights of the year. It was during the szechuan earthquake.

Donation wells were put up in the spring and a tree was erected to put notes of hope on it.

Before i saw this, i thought kuchingnites hardly had a sense of humour. Guess i was wrong.

Sick sick humour.

TOO LAZY TO TILT.

omg clarice, your face!

Taken during the fashion show for Evening with the stars. I did his makeup!

Looks horrible through a 1.3mp camera phone,

but as long as he loved it, i'm ok!

I DIDNT KNOW THEY MADE MEN'S POCKY!

Maybe it's testosterone packed?

At town's McD. We HAD to camwhore - just taking a break from

an exam? I'm not sure when but Cheryl came running,

"WAIIIT! I WANNA CAMWHORE TOO!"

You can just imagine her saying that right!?

My little hammies!

Not so little actually. they're syrian hamsters. Fat ones cause i am not a healthy person,

and my pets reflect who i am as a human. The brown one is called pikachu (sister has an obsession for that yellow electric charged pest) the dark brown one is called Harry II.

Harry was named after Amy's hamster. I'm not very original.

Well, nothing is new under the sun.

Jesse getting a shampoo at Trenzcut.

I had to figure out what this was when i was looking through.

Desmond and dick. During study leave.

I was somewhere else and i left my phone in the class.

It's a 5A trad. Take someone's phone, cam whore , set as wallpaper.

So you see this obscene smiling face when you check the time on your phone.

> .> Thanks to the Then Brothers.

Sam the man staring at---

EC's fingers?

O__O

Some weird fetish you have there.

ooh ooh! This was when clarice dislocated some bone called 'accessory navicular'.

You can kinda guess. It's an extra bone in her foot that got dislocated. So she had to go for surgery to screw it in.

There's one quote from her that i loved! (more or less)

"This is karma.

I've always teased Samantha for being a robot -

now i actually have a screw in my foot."

Anyways, jesse up there - well. Clarice couldnt stop giggling cause she

was so deprived of laughter for days and jesse had to give that frog look.

You know.

the FROG look.

O___O

THERE's TWO??

*i need to pinch your cheeks when i see you again*

Civic day? We were allowed to wear casual clothes. This was during Cikgu Chong's class,

actually, waiting to watch Ah Long Pte Ltd. My hand looks freakishly long.

That's charlene's phone btw. OH mang. I miss my hair.

I will never wear makeup that thick ever again.

OMG cikgu willie at the back!

5A tradition!

She tries and tries...

and succeed. I always let my guard down.

Payback comes in the form of countless poking.

..can we fix it?

YES WE CAN!

Jesse's form 3/4 (?) bday pressie from a bunch of people.

NO idea why it's in my phone.

KK Leo Forum.

We didnt get the OUTSTANDING club award this year.

We should have! We fulfilled all criteria but one!

And other clubs didnt do as well, but got it anyway.

That fatass DG Lion is corrupt.

Btw, this picture was suppose to be used for the kk post

which i never sat down to do.

Stop staring.

Study leave, i think someone was mocking me from afar.

Coward! Must be desmong. JOke lah.

you kno i love youu.

*i particularly like this picture because it makes my Cs look almost like Ds. You know what i'm talking about. ;-) *

Some kids' drawing at spring. IT IS SO ADORABLE!

I would so hang that in my room.

Franklin posing.

A bunch had dinner at Manhattan Fish Market.

His shirt was really gay. thank goodness

i dont see him wearing it anymore.

Amy and i decided to design a new mascot for McDonalds.

Ronald was just too pervy looking.

I cant remember what we named it, but it's cute no?

Some girls were laughing from the corner.

we were soO proud of the litte critter.

BUt when we left, the person killed it.

Do you think it would've made a kickass mascot?

I bought this way overpriced. at Rm60+

it was the IN thing, demand was high so prices were too.

Sorry econs habit.

We got those little hippos at Rm4 from some machine at KL (form3 kl trip). the green one

on the right is mine, silver on the left is Clarice's and the top on belongs to En Hui.

I just realised it looks like a shrine.

ARGH.

A see - a zit! Between the brows!

*i DO have a space between the browS*

Day before SPM.

Zoe (Lee) was in her bikini showing off to the swimming santa lookalike.

Not really.

But up there, as you can see, a Jesse - concentrating on his sejarah papers.

Who else would it be with that snow white complexion of his. ;)

If you're a frequent swkclub goer, you'll see this kitty around!

he has a missing toe on his right hind leg.

Huina's temporary puppy called C-cup.

Because her whole family would feed it without knowing that someone else already did.

Seriously cute!

Normal everyday scene of 5A.

Clarice choking on something, joash laughing along, and me

provoking them even more.

This was of course in Hong Kong noodle house in Saberkas.

Joash posing. No biggie. =D i love you!

HAha i had a very unpleasant memory that i (sadly) cannot share.

I dont think anyone else deserves something that bad. Joo, you were there.

you know.

Oh. Zoe was forcefeeding people her dinner.

There, reason to her figure.

During ~~monobrow's~~ Jocelyn's birthday.

Occasions like these just calls for a camwhore session!

my hair. o__o

no comment on this one.

My hair - again!

Pretty ahlian.

My good friend from PBK, hang yau. Didnt keep in touch. =(

NO COMMENT.

Jocelyn's parteh.

> .> camhos!

Last year outside bing. Very random.

She tried to hide one eye with hair because she only applied mascara

on one side only.

LOL.

Clarice after her surgery!

Her lips were BLUE. I thought it only happened in movies.

Another quote!:

"I was feeling down, so i wore the class shirt to cheer myself up."

Aww.

At the stutong market just behind my house eating stuff.

Those girls were craving!

Mind you, Jamie eats a lot.

T__T

yeah yeah. your metabolism rate.

samantha with her harrier!

She was the driver who drove us to eat!

So man.

This was the end of form3. See the mess on the floor? PMR ova!

Matthew and the smallest hamster of the batch.

Matthew the fish man!

Jamie. When she had longer hair.

I miss 3b =((

OH YEAH!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY!

*not like she'll read it anyways*

damn poser. hAHAH

Angelo!

Agnes' hamster who passed way this year.

RIP. =(

Hong Kong Noodle House.

Yes, i do love that shirt.

Stupid candids.

Jesse's fault.

Abstinencee? During the yawn inducing talk - forgot what it's called.

I've "lost" my card.

Seriously.

Whoa my hair!

This was around the end of form 4.

Just had to take a photo with our beloved, but

dont-mess-with-him cikgu willie.

One of the nicest picture that i love. <3

Stacked plastic chairs always induces inspiration.

Sidney's bedroom!

I cant remember when. But we had a great time!

We scared the crap out of franklin - he has a

irrational fear of balloons.

OOH. Alex drank around two cans of heineken, and fell asleep.

Hahah rookie.

Coffee bean with franklin.

I look... no comment.

=.=

on clarice's bday! She made everyone wear black.

I went with pink. (so puii)

She even called those people who hasnt show up to wear black.

I felt special and cool~

Mainly because we walked to town from club under the sun.

After the class photoshoot!

At tun jugah's food gallery. My hair!

(no i do not have some obsession for myOWN hair.

i just - just miss those times when my hair would look

good pretty effortless)

teddy! <3 d="">

That's.. it??

I'll post up more pictures taken using my lappie's cam soon.

I miss you guys!

I'll see some of you all tonight!

I miss school!

2008-12-29T21:33:00.000-08:00

I WAS NEVER AND NEVER WILL BE ASHAMED TO SAY I LOVE LODGE , AND I MISS SCHOOL!

Because it's during those times that i had the most memories with all my friends. Be it retarded, hysterical, emotional - anything. I love school.

I'm saying this also because i miss my all friends (I MISS YOU GUYS!) . Having a convo with clarice made me realise that. Our retarded moments has been reduced greatly since SPM started.

Anyhoo, here's a sample of retarded moments i usually have with her!

fiShy ♥ ♥ || kickdrop says:

=.=

omh

*omg

hey, why do people say ZOMG?

mooooooooooooooooo

sarah 08 | says:

COZ ITZ COOLZ

fiShy ♥ ♥ || kickdrop says:

oh rly?

i wanna be cool!

ZOMG!

sarah 08 | says:

LOLZ!

WEZ AREZ SOZ COOLZ

fiShy ♥ ♥ || kickdrop says:

IZ KNOWZ

sarah 08 | says:

=DZZ

fiShy ♥ ♥ || kickdrop says:

WHYZ UPZ WIZ THEZ ZZZZZ?

xDZZZZ

sarah 08 | says:

COZ ITZ VERYZ COOLZ!

fiShy ♥ ♥ || kickdrop says:

EEKZ IZ GOTTENZ BITTENZ BYZ INSECTZ

andz naoz imzz allergicz toz emzz

sarah 08 | says:

UHz OHz!

fiShy ♥ ♥ || kickdrop says:

yeszz!!

omgzz

sarah 08 | says:

LOlz thatz looksz likez thosez chemicalz elementsz

fiShy ♥ ♥ || kickdrop says:

whenz iz wasz inz sydneyz

argzzz

sarah 08 | says:

OMGZ Iz Missz youzz!

fiShy ♥ ♥ || kickdrop says:

IZ LOOOKZ LIKEZ IZ HAVEZ SKINZ DISEASEZZ!

sarah 08 | says:

WHAIIZ!?

fiShy ♥ ♥ || kickdrop says:

EEKZZ IZ MIISSZZ YOUZZ TOZ!

yeaz...

iz feelz veryz...

lolz!

Yes, if you were wondering, we DID finish off our conversation like that too. =D

Iz MISSZ YOUZ GUYZ!

OMG THIS IS SO CUTE.

2008-12-29T08:56:00.000-08:00

OMGWTFLMAOROFLBBQ.

For Sims enthusias

2008-12-29T08:01:00.000-08:00

If you love the sims as much as i do, I'm sure you'll know that around Feb 2009, Sims 3 will be out.

And boy, i cant wait.

I've watched the trailer. My thoughts, "That looks cool. Gotta own that!"

So i searched for more trailers. I stumbled upon the development video. My thoughts?

"That is so SICK!! I WANT TO PREORDER NOW!"

So while you guys wait for the video to load, i'll give you a brief insight on the game that makes me want to scream till my vocal muscles tear.

- Neighbourhood gameplay : YES! That means no blur neighbour's houses around your house while playing (like in the Sims). Your sims can walk around the WHOLE neightbourhood. Knock on your neighbour's door, say hi, go to the park, go to work - basically you get to explore endless possibilities. STELLAR!

- Detailed personality traits : VERY detailed. It's nothing you've played before. On the sims2, all you can do is increase interest on something or make their mood happy - they are all the same. NOW, you can personalize your sim! You can make them a vegetarian, hardheaded ,has a great sense of humour, easily excited - your sim can have 5 at a time so the combinations are hell lot.

- More powerful sim 'bodyshop' : One of the things i'm dying to try out. Sims2, you can use bodyshop to personalize your sim's looks. It's the same thing in sims 3, but much better and powerful. (now with monobrow option!) Your sims can have blonde hair with black roots, or green roots with purple highlights - ANYTHING you can think of. You can make your sims REALLY heavy, or anorexic - or anything in between, unlike sims2, where you can be fat, skinny or fit. IN sims 3, you can be muscular - like i said, different combos with better tools. * i heard from somewhere that you can even change their VOICE! *

It's just awesome beyond awesome. Check the vids out now~!

Boredom sinks

2008-12-28T23:07:00.000-08:00

When I'm not eating, or playing Sims2, or obsessing on house,or fantasize about Hugh Laurie or watching tv, or drawing, or eating - i've nothing else to do. I'm not practising my piano like i told myself to, or starting on my portfolio, or figuring out my future. And yet, one day,i know i'm gonna reminisce on these few days and regret that i've not done anything productive. Ahh the irony!

Btw, this is one of another post i spout random things. NO,it's not to slip in the fact i have another crush (which i completely forgot about) <--in denial.

Basically, i'm just saying, im bored out of my mind. *omg i just thought that a picture below was some dirt on my screen* deusche.

So i decided to update this neglected webpage that i own. I remember i used to always doodle to accompany my posts. So i'm going to make this compulsory for all my post from here on out.

I wanna play RA3. T__T Jesse, please please please pass it to me asap!

Oh mang. I miss house. I've not watched a new episode since God knows when, and i'm not going to be watching any new eps anytime soon.

I miss staring at Hugh Laurie's face. =( AND his CANE. OH HIS CANE!!

*squint to read*

The next episode will be airing next year, on the 19th of January. 20th of January for us, since that's America's airing date (the GMT thing). Waiting for something you love - never easy. But it pays off, right? *next episode better be awesome*

Omg i miss fwish so much. <3 class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">*here's a gay post for you my darling* Oh you're finally back! I feel like all my burden has been lifted! <3>

=.=

Eh hmm. >. > Look what i saw in the chinese papers last night! Poor mouse has ceiling eyes.
The cat was something i HAD to draw. OH OH. If anyone of you sees a stray kitten around your neighbourhood or house, please hold it captive in a box and notify me! I want a little kitty to cuddle. =(

Oh - sometimes, people just stop tolerating. Reason? The other person doesnt try. There's an unwritten give and take law in the world! D=< That results in karma. ok, i have no idea where this will lead me.

Bottom line, you just want that person to lay off!!

*it's a shotgun!*

> . > Dont assume it's yourself, cause - i'm not very sure myself whom i was talking about. <. <

Yesterday, i was out with a bunch playing badminton. We hit the gym afterthat, and i saw this guy. OH goodness. He has the sexiest legs i've ever seen on a man. (it wasnt girly or anything, it was so toned, not muscular - i cant put the proper words together to describe it.)

AND whooh! His body! How perfect! His abs werent super defined or anything, but the overall size couldnt be anymore wonderful. Best bod ive seen so far in kuching.

It doesnt stop there!!

.. Ok it does. His face , i rate it a "meh". And how do i know so much about his body? Well, ;-)

somethings are better left unsaid.

*oh suure,sarah. Suure.*

alright, he pulled up his shirt for all to see. He was just checking himself in the mirror like all gymgoers do.

Well, that's a first.

anywhoo - When i first sat down to start on this post, i heard this hugeass gush of wind! It wasnt the measly woooo~~ you hear during thunderstorms. it's more like a hurricane's WHOOSH. Potted plants were tumbling over, and trees in the distance were tilting at a 60degree angle. NO drizzle, no rain. Just a crazy wind blowing thunderclouds away.

IT was AWESOME.

Well, enjoy the rest of your day!

here's a tag.

2008-12-21T05:29:00.000-08:00

i think two people tagged me. Fion and Sidney. I think. I think. THINK.,

Rules & Regulations:

Do not copy answers

Tag questions must be 100% same

Tag people before doing the tag

I tag:

1. Sidney widney

2. Fwish

3. T.E.H.

4. H.H.C.

5. Keith the chef

6. Jesse Boi

7. Hugh Laurie

8. Long noodles CCmien

9. hmm, .. eh my broken mouse.

How do you know 1? (Sidney)

Lets see, form 2. He got transfered to 2B. The boy who started the guitar craze =D

What would you do if you never meet 2? (Fwish/clarice)

Honestly, i wouldnt be the person i am today. She's like my BBBBBBBBFFFF. We met in kindy A, bitch fought in primary, reconciled in secondary and turn the bestest of friends.

I wouldnt be the sarah that i am if it wasnt for her. sobs. * I love you, my perempuan simpanan!*

What would you do if 3 & 4 dated? (En Hui and Hui Ching)

O___O I will prepare for apocalypse. *Hell just froze over.* seriously that's just sick. sick sick sick

Would 5 & 6 make a good couple? (Keith and Jesse)

LOLLLLLLLLL. I have a good feeling they would. But it wouldnt last. Something about guitarists and chef that doenst click well.

Do you think 7 is attractive? (Hugh Laurie)

Holy. [i felt like i cheated or something - as if i looked at the question first] DO I? DO i?That's the reason he's in the list! I'll gladly be his babymomma.

Tell me something about 9 (my broken mouse)

Well, it's black and broken. My sister sat on it. D= (she didnt. but somehow it broke. Breaking by sitting is just one of the most cutest thing that could happen)

What's 1's favourite past time? (Sidney)

Hmm? i'm not so sure. Playing the guitar or looking for videos online. I'm not so sure. Chatting with his girl? I think that's more plausible.

What language does 2 speak? (Clarice)

English, BMelayu, Chinese, hokkien, lil bit of japanese and perhaps korean, and my all time fav - gibberish. Seriously. She thinks that no was listens to her when she's talking nonsense. I SIT NEXT TO YOU.

Hhaha omg. School =(

Who is 3 going out with? (En hui)

No one. Who wants her number? =B

How old is 4? (Hui Ching)

Seventeen =D

When was the last time you talked to 5? (Keith)

This afternoon. Something about washing his mini cooper.

Who is 6's favourite singer? (Jesse)

EASY. HAYLEY from Paramore. (well, currently)

Would you date 7? (Hugh Laurie)

Oh. My. Yesplease. I dont needto date,straight to b- Yes. I would love to go out on a date.

Is 8 single? (Chang Mien)

Yes. Well, from what i know. She is single.

What's 9's last name? (my broken mouse)

Mobile Gear. My Broken Mouse Mobile Gear.

Would you consider being in a relationship with 1? (Sidney)

Yes. Course. [tho he's like my koko] If the girlfriend is reading this, dont find this as a threat! HAHA. That means your taste is good kay. *but i will NEVER*

Which school does 2 go to? (Clarice)

She was in lodge. =D we graduated from highschool doh.

What do you like about 3? (En hui)

She's - just full of shyt. LOl. The funny shyt. She just talks shyt it's sooo funny. She doesnt stop. HAHAHAH. omg i love youuu!

More House md

2008-12-19T10:30:00.001-08:00

Im sure a bunch of people our there are sick of my enthusiam for House md. I think i'm merely sharing something great with you all. XD

This quote was taken from season 3 episode 12, titled One day, One Room. [itv made me feel fuzzy on the inside]

Here's why.

(red is house's line, purple for the patient)

your story, is it true?

*pause*

..true for somebody.

but not for you..

these things happen. It happened to somebody, why would you care that it happened to me

they're not in this room-

NO, they're out there - doctors, lawyers..postal workers. Some are doing great, some are doing lousy.

You're gonna base your whole life on who got stuck in a room with?

I'm gonna base this moment who i'm stuck in a room with. That's what life is. It's a series of rooms.

And who we get stuck in those rooms with, adds up to what our lives are.

----

the producers better not screw up the current season.

Not enough house

2008-12-09T22:51:00.000-08:00

I cant stop ranting about house. I NEED house. An episode a week is such a tease. It's NOT enough for me!

And i did the stupidest thing ever. I searched for House Fanfics. I DONT read fanfics mainly because it makes me feel obsessed over something pointless. Sure, House md is a great tv show but that's as far as it goes. A great 45 minutes of view pleasure everyweek - not some obsession over a hospital staff which looks too good to be doctors.

I dont hate fanfics. I only get creeped out by people who write them. It shows their obsession for a certain tv show, series, movie, celebrity. Being obsessive is creepy. It's like stalking. Who knows how far the author's imagination went. It's creepy.

Yeah i DID have an obsession for Hugh Laurie. Actually, Dr Greg House. But he is not a real person, and therefore it was shortlived. Having fantasies about him was pointless. Now, dont tell me that fantasies are about things that CANT or most probably WONT happen, in which it is not pointless. It's true. But fantasies make you feel good for a moment no matter how many times it gets replayed in your mind. at the end, you wake up to reality and you feel like crap. I'm sure you all can agree with that. It has to end, that fantasy, and it feels worser than not having a fantasy at all.

o____o i just paused to read that. *shakes it off*

I have a architecture portfolio to do for college. But i have no guidelines whatsoever. If anyone of you knows how, or knows someone who has info on this please please please email me. [snsl5433@hotmail.com]

I've picked my future. Hopefully, i stick with it.

Ok back to my tablet. Polyvores to finish.

2008-12-04T20:02:00.000-08:00

Tagged by Charlene

According to your age (17), list down the number of things that most people don't know about you. And then tag 5 people.

1) I love the colour ORANGE.and yellow.
2) I have slight OCD. I have to wash my feet quite a lot.
3) I like guys with slightly smaller eyes.
4) I can play the flute! Thanks to joo.
5) I love washing cars. It's oddly satisfying.
6) I can fix the rubix cube in under 3 minutes. (I know it's slow lah)
7) I love patronising people. i guess it's from watching too much HOUSE (only to those who cant think fast enough to understand. )
8) I think Hugh Laurie looks ugly without his oh so sexy stubble.
9) I am secretly happy that Britney is making a comeback.
10) I am a temporary hardcore gamer. That means i play hardcore-ly when i get a new game. (my RA3 is not installing fast enough!)
11) I love guys who can look comfortable and gorgeous in a sweater.
12) I think it's absurd that my brother's ipod doesnt have paramore's album.
13) I dyed my hair black. o___o

14) I cant stand being tubby.
15) Im not doing any of those things i wanted to do now that SPM is over.

16) I'm losing sleep thinking about college.
17) I think im not spending enough time with my besties.

Hmm. this tag made me think. What to do now?