Each and everyone of you back in secondary school. I've been insomniac for the past few nights, and all i think about are those wonderful happy happy times that i dreadfully miss.
And of course, it includes you, Aaron. That dream i had about you. Thanks.
For those who didnt read about my dream i posted on his facebook wall here it is. The day i remembered about what i dreamt, i had just had to post it up - right before catching the bus. I couldn't just leave it in my head.
so the dream went like this:
I was just standing there, facing this blank grey wall. Someone standing to my left, i couldn't make out who. I was just minding my own business and then this guy, familiar face - a face i knew i missed. He popped up from behind the wall I was facing. On him was a red polo, donned with thin horizontal white stripes. It took me a moment to realise who this guy was.
With a blank look, he handed me a pink box (very much like those cake boxes). Smiled and disappeared behind the very same wall. Confused much? VERY. I stood there holding that box - very very confused.
Seconds later, that guy, that devil of a guy. He came back behind the wall, "JUST JOKING LAH!" I was still pretty much confused. I smiled nonetheless. Blissed because he heard me and decided to give me a quick visit. He put his arm around me, started talking (cant remember about what). Right before he disappeared, he said, "So you're behaving right? I know you are. Keep it up! Be a good girl kay?" (there's a reason this means so much to me)
Guys, if you saw what you say you'd know he was in a much better place. His face was just beaming. It was seriously glowing, and he had the biggest, most genuine smile I've ever witness. It was so vivid, i cannot and will not forget that image.
And when i looked back at the box, it was a bowl. An orange bowl - very much like those kopitiam kolo mee bowls. "yes, he remembered our promise to enjoy a bowl of authentic kuching kolo mee together when i get back."
I miss you aaron. you know that. XD
One reason this meant so much to me is, not only did i 'asked' for a visit when i really missed him, but when i did - Jesse and Morgan told me being the person he was , he'd probably prank or surprised me. He did exactly that. And it's mind blowing. Including that bowl of kolo mee.
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And the rest of you guys! You know who you are, and even the ones who think they're not one of those im mentioning. When i say you guys, i meant it. All of you. 5A. 3B. I count my blessings everyday - and thank the good Lord i have such wonderful and accepting friends in the world.
Yes world, be jealous. BE F****** jealous. I have the BEST FRIENDS on earth. notice the s? PLURAL MUDAFUKKA. They are all F****** fantastic, you have no idea how amazing they are. Always there when you need them. And when you tell them something you fear might put them of, they surprise you and love you even more.
Best fucking friends in the world.
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and as for my family. I never dared say how much i miss you guys - mainly because you idiots guys have some sort of unwritten policy to hardly say a word about missing each other or something. But damn, do i miss my brother. I was disappointed when he told me earlier that he might not be going back to Kch this year.
Little sis, you idiot - you'll get a good sisterly beating first thing i see you.
Old hag of an older sister - i love you, but let me help you! and tell me you love me too.
Mom - i've always told you and you know. sorry i get on your nerves too much, but sometimes you have to compromise.
Dad - i want to spend more time with you! D8 Like, sitting in front of the tv set and just watching a movie quietly - and then you with your comments on how ridiculous the movie and actors are.
<3
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and i couldnt have asked for more when i met this girl - who is like a sister to me here. yasmin you ga7ba - this will sound gay. and it is. Im sooooo happy i have someone here who understands and accept me like the people back home. so im glad i met you , you nigga. HAHHA.
imsomniac now. i will try to sleep to wake up early to work on my portfolio.
