Adele, oh, adele.

Adele has such a beautiful voice. A voice that reaches in and pulls out everything you feel.

I never expected anything. So why am i still so attached to someone that i'm absolutely happy to see obviously ecstatic with another?

No one reads this blog anymore.

And so, it's just another place for me to rant.

It's my birthday today. All going great so far. Close friends and family wished me but for some reason I'm still thinking about one person.

Why am i still thinking about her? It's been over 3-4 months and yet it stings like i've been cut yesterday. Maybe I'm terrified that the person that dominate my thoughts doesn't think about me the slightest. Terrified that I mean nothing to her that she can't even remember my birthday.

This is a side effect of tumblr i swear. I am not normally emotional out of the blue. I just can't get her out of my head.


I am disappointed that she hasn't contacted me at all. I'll be crushed if she doesn't for the next few days. If that happens, i will know that i am out of her life. Hold on, i know that very well. After all, it was I that walked out on her life. Nothing dramatic, people. I just had to leave that country due to my expiring visa at the moment.

I am not ashamed to say i still love her and miss her. She treated me like a princess and she helped me mature as the young adult I am today. We grew as a couple. An outstanding beautiful couple with massive potential.

I need sleep. I need her. I WANT her.

Moving on is not hard. Letting go is. Especially when you know you're letting go of something so good. It just doesn't make sense.

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