It's my birthday today. All going great so far. Close friends and family wished me but for some reason I'm still thinking about one person.
Why am i still thinking about her? It's been over 3-4 months and yet it stings like i've been cut yesterday. Maybe I'm terrified that the person that dominate my thoughts doesn't think about me the slightest. Terrified that I mean nothing to her that she can't even remember my birthday.
This is a side effect of tumblr i swear. I am not normally emotional out of the blue. I just can't get her out of my head.
I am disappointed that she hasn't contacted me at all. I'll be crushed if she doesn't for the next few days. If that happens, i will know that i am out of her life. Hold on, i know that very well. After all, it was I that walked out on her life. Nothing dramatic, people. I just had to leave that country due to my expiring visa at the moment.
I am not ashamed to say i still love her and miss her. She treated me like a princess and she helped me mature as the young adult I am today. We grew as a couple. An outstanding beautiful couple with massive potential.
This is a side effect of tumblr i swear. I am not normally emotional out of the blue. I just can't get her out of my head.
I am disappointed that she hasn't contacted me at all. I'll be crushed if she doesn't for the next few days. If that happens, i will know that i am out of her life. Hold on, i know that very well. After all, it was I that walked out on her life. Nothing dramatic, people. I just had to leave that country due to my expiring visa at the moment.
I am not ashamed to say i still love her and miss her. She treated me like a princess and she helped me mature as the young adult I am today. We grew as a couple. An outstanding beautiful couple with massive potential.
I need sleep. I need her. I WANT her.
Moving on is not hard. Letting go is. Especially when you know you're letting go of something so good. It just doesn't make sense.
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