The beauty myth : Naomi Wolf

Currently reading : The beauty myth. Just 20 pages in, and im already stopping to step back and digest the information slowly - because it is that mindblowing.

Well, that's if you're a feminist. But i got my bubble burst, because seriously, no one is really spared. As long as makeup, weight , heels and cute clothes are involved - women still dont have complete freedom.

If you're thinking that it's a choice to dress up? Guess what? The media has bent your thinking into it is totally your choice. Read it, and think again.

And then again, it's a contradiction, because women now are rejoicing their bodies WITH makeup, a good figure , heels and cute clothes. Either that the thinking has been definitely altered with.

HMM??

Finally, a book im going to read till the end.

cheers.

RIP Michael Jackson

Sure, i'm a little slow. Actually i didnt even plan on doing a post on him - but after watching his memorial service at the Staples center in LA at 5am, and listening to all those eulogies by close family and friends, i cant help but to.

Now, i'm not going to pretend that his music played a significant part in ALL chapters of my short 18 years of life so far - but i DID grow up listening to his songs, and there's ONE particular song from him that i will NEVER forget. Because it holds so much meaning for me and every one else who knew Aaron. (and plus Aaron loved idolized MJ.)

And in this post, you'll see why im so convinced that there will be no such icon as large as Michael, and that he's a bigger man than what the media have portrayed him.

RIP Michael Jackson

29th August 1958 - 25th June 2009

First off, i dreamt about him when i slept this morning after watching the memorial which ended at 7.45am. (haha, arent i lucky getting a visit from the king of pop in my dreams) Nothing unusual really. We talked like old buddies walking along a street, chatting away. Then when we came to a corner, he walked off and disappeared.

Pretty metaphorical if you ask me. Then i realised that MJ was a great being, a great friend to anyone lucky enough to know him personally. Brooke Shields. Her speech compromised of "giggling" and calling Michael mischievious and stating that he was a great caring person. Very human - and never being a diva about anything. Magic Johnson shared a bucket of KFC with him on the floor -laughing. And he actually cared for his fans. Elizabeth taylor - she was one of the

people wayyyy at the back of one of his concerts, couldnt hear much or see much, so she left the concert halfway. Michael was informed about that and he called her up,crying, and apologized. The proceeded to talk for the next 3 hours.

I dont know any other star this day who would do that.

And when he came to Auckland years ago, one lady on the auckland team said that when he arrived to the hotel, instead of dashing to the lift and to his suite, he stopped and greeted everyone on the staff and giggling while kicking the balloons that covered the entire lobby floor.

He was a great being- he's in the Guinness Book of Records for giving most to charities over the world. He called up Coretta Scott King (Mrs Martin Luther King Jr) when she was ill in bed, all the way from the middle east- told her that he was praying for her and asked her if she had music in her room. She smiled, and according to her daughter, "Her whole face smiled."

That was just to name a few. If you watched the memorial, you know you cant get the image of Paris boldly standing up to the mic, telling the whole world that her daddy was the best, then later crying into Janet's arms. You know you'll never forget that.

MICHAEL jackson. You just have to talk about his music. It was epic! Highest selling album of all time. And Not one of his songs are bad. NOT ONE. (not like i know all, but if he was to have a lousy track, i would've heard of it) Each one was a masterpiece, and some had messages. Powerful messages that, successfully bring people from all over together. Songs about change for the world, starting with the person in the mirror.

He didn just make music. He made history. He broke down the racial divide. He made it possible for all african americans to do what they can today on the world's stage. Because of his music, all his beloved fans can stand united. Without a doubt, he has started the process of healing the world through his music. it's our job to continue that.

The white sequinned glove. The toe stand. The tilted fedoras. The military outfits. The MOON WALK. No other celebrity/icon can leave such an impression on the world.

And im sure no other celebrity can create a media stir like he can. lol. I could remember that time he held Blanket over the balcony and the time he had more plastic surgery or whatever. His going white- hoho, boy can the haters attack. Saying that he wasnt proud of being black. Personally, i felt that he was just trying to make a point. Starting with himself - like he said. No matter if he's black or white, he's still human, he's still breathing, he's still singing, he's still caring. He's still, the ultimate entertainer, Michael Jackson.

So with all this, i truly believe that there will be no icon as large as this. Some reporter said that we cant compare, like how we cant compare anyone to Elvis Presly, we cant compare anyone to Michael Jackson because it's all different. It's true, i agree. But Michael Jackson - was EPIC. IN EVERY SENSE.

his music - EPIC.

his trademarks - EPIC.

his passion to bring the world together - EPIC.

the tabloids. - EPIC.

His love for his fans - EPIC.

His influence on the world - EPIC.

Michael Jackson was IS EPIC. He'll live on as the ultimate entertainer , till the end of time. which i believe with every inch of me.

Im that type to believe that in time, anything could happen. Anything. Anything like , another icon might rise and knock the white socks of Michael. BUT not this time. To me he's the ULTIMATE. Untouched. God bless MJ. (and if there IS a rising star, boy, does he/she have a frikkin tall order)

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"Smile though your heart is aching" Michael's fav song. And when Brooke Shields told everyone to smile eventhough their hearts were aching, she tried to smile herself. That was the hardest thing to watch, ever. Because losing a great friend is never easy.

ps. Cried mad when heal the world played. It has been 3 months. Happy moonwalking with the king up there, Aaron.

ps.s. Race obviously meant nothing to him. He is my idol for making that clear for millions over the world.

facebook = friendster?

Last week or so, i had a notification on facebook- an invite from someone to join some group, telling that after inviting at least fifty of your contacts, you have a tracker of somesort, like friendster, to tell who has been viewing your profile.

And today, i saw on the highlight area (right hand column), around 12 from my list joined this group.

Group named "Colour your facebook profile - invite all your friends". They have over 230k members.

Sure, now you get to personalise your facebook background. Later, you can customise your fonts on your page. Soon, your cursors turn into pink unicorns when you stumble across an aquaintance's page. NOW, doesnt that just sound oh too familiar?

Friendster.

One of the reasons why i left FS:

Weirdos/Pervs can send you messages like these. If im not mistaken Facebook allows you to tweak your settings, only allowing friends to send you messages. Im not too sure about friendster though. (too lazy to do any research for now)

Main point is, i dont want to see facebook turn into the next friendster. I love the plain professional blue and white. I dont really mind personalised backgrounds, but one thing always leads to another. And as for getting notifications for who has viewed your profile? I really dont want to know who has been stalking me *perasan* (or people finding out i've been stalking them).

Facebook is NOT friendster.

Let it stay that way please.

I AM!

a size ten / twelve!

jeng jeng jeng.

size twelve butt mind you.

I recently had an epiphany.. about my size/weight/build whatever you want to call it.

I AM FAT. NO ohnoes smileys and sad faces after. I have accepted that i am flabby here and there, not because i am unmotivated to exercise, or lazy to - but because im somewhat comfortable in my own skin. FINALLY.

If you're reading this and think i need assurance that i'm otherwise, well, thanks. But i am really comfy with how i look right now. :) i'm squishy and huggable too! HAHA. For my height and bone structure (i found out that i actually have a smaller body frame than initially thought), i am .. OVERWEIGHT. jeng jeng jeng. That, perhaps, is the only thing that drives me to exercise. NOT solely because i want to attract ppl a lean body - because i am totally for the fact that real women have curves. *america ferrera ftw!*

I'm not saying im going to binge whenever i desire. I am going to start regular exercises *i already did, but on hold because mom's luggage is sitting on my exercise space* <--excuses ehem , after my mom returns to kuching, just to keep fit and to remind myself that going obese isnt any more of a healthy option than being stick thin (not like i can).

*shit i lost my train of thought*

I'm telling you now, that i am confident the way i am - maybe it's just a result of giving up exercise and healthy eating. Sure it sounds unhealthy.. but im actually eating apples for lunch =.= ok. this is going nowhere. :P

Size ten models. Still fab.

Ok. I've spent a good amount of time staring at those models. They are gorgeous! You just need the right clothes. HAHA. :B

I LOVE MY OWN BODY.

question is, do you love yours

and p.s.

I rock the parakeet hair hard. HAHA.

I've never felt this confident in a while. Took this and didnt photoshp it one bit. :D

doesnt include the scribbles lah.

*had this hairstyle before rihanna did recently, so dont assume that im copying her, tho i dont mind.*

Itty bitty little things

 One way to tick me off is to challenge my knowlegde of my best friend of over a decade. In the early morning.

so, DONT.

Ps. yeah. silly fbers.

Watching..

the inauguration

of 

Barack Obama.

Truly, today is historical. And i'll be losing sleep to etch this moment in history

into my mind. 

Now, im just waiting for the change the world so badly needs.

It's almost the new year.

2009!

Less than 3 days till 2009.

Fresh new start!

But before we move on, lets reminisce one last time for the year about the past.

*i was finding a nice wallpaper for my phone, so i went through my images. I still couldnt find a suitable one, but i got soo inspired to do this little trip down memory lane. You'll see pictures that i never thought i'll be posting, mainly because i didnt like how i  look.   It's all different now, hence this post.*

Form 3! I think this is the only picture of us three together. 

Cheesy, but - bffs forever mang!

Form 5 (no duh) last few sessions of PE. Girl's pyramid. It was awesome!

me being the man, I was of course, base.

GOING FOR 5 LEVELS! Jocelyn, i am still ticked off you didnt finish it off!!

D=< 

But thanks 5a, for some of the greatest moments eva!

4 levels! Easy peasy. But Ambrose wouldnt shuddup and goyang a lot.

AHAH. ohmang. i miss your mischief in Cikgu Lily's class.

Another girls' pyramid. 

Alex being a perv hoping somehow alyssa will land on him.

LOOK moses enjoys it too!

OH. This is one of the highlights of the year. It was during the szechuan earthquake. 

Donation wells were put up in the spring and a tree was erected to put notes of hope on it. 

Before i saw this, i thought kuchingnites hardly had a sense of humour. Guess i was wrong.

Sick sick humour.

TOO LAZY TO TILT. 

 omg clarice, your face! 

 Taken during the fashion show for Evening with the stars. I did his makeup! 

Looks horrible through a 1.3mp camera phone, 

but as long as he loved it, i'm ok!

I DIDNT KNOW THEY MADE MEN'S POCKY!

Maybe it's testosterone packed?

At town's McD. We HAD to camwhore - just taking a break from

an exam? I'm not sure when but Cheryl came running, 

"WAIIIT! I WANNA CAMWHORE TOO!"

You can just imagine her saying that right!?

My little hammies!

Not so little actually. they're syrian hamsters. Fat ones cause i am not a healthy person,

and my pets reflect who i am as a human. The brown one is called pikachu (sister has an obsession for that yellow electric charged pest) the dark brown one is called Harry II. 

Harry was named after Amy's hamster. I'm not very original. 

Well, nothing is new under the sun.

Jesse getting a shampoo at Trenzcut. 

I had to figure out what this was when i was looking through.

Desmond and dick. During study leave. 

I was somewhere else and i left my phone in the class. 

It's a 5A trad. Take someone's phone, cam whore , set as wallpaper.

So you see this obscene smiling face when you check the time on your phone. 

> .> Thanks to the Then Brothers. 

Sam the man staring at---

EC's fingers?

O__O

Some weird fetish you have there.

ooh ooh! This was when clarice dislocated some bone called 'accessory navicular'.

You can kinda guess. It's an extra bone in her foot that got dislocated. So she had to go for surgery to screw it in.

There's one quote from her that i loved! (more or less)

"This is karma.

I've always teased Samantha for being a robot -

now i actually have a screw in my foot."

Anyways, jesse up there - well. Clarice couldnt stop giggling cause she 

was so deprived of laughter for days and jesse had to give that frog look. 

You know. 

the FROG look.

 

O___O

THERE's TWO??

*i need to pinch your cheeks when i see you again*

Civic day? We were allowed to wear casual clothes. This was during Cikgu Chong's class,

actually, waiting to watch Ah Long Pte Ltd.  My hand looks freakishly long. 

That's charlene's phone btw. OH mang. I miss my hair.

I will never wear makeup that thick ever again.

OMG cikgu willie at the back!

5A tradition!

She tries and tries...

and succeed. I always let my guard down.

Payback comes in the form of countless poking.

..can we fix it? 

YES WE CAN!

Jesse's form 3/4 (?) bday pressie from a bunch of people.

NO idea why it's in my phone.

KK Leo Forum.

 We didnt get the OUTSTANDING club award this year.

We should have! We fulfilled all criteria but one!

And other clubs didnt do as well, but got it anyway.

That fatass DG Lion is corrupt.

Btw,  this picture was suppose to be used for the kk post

which i never sat down to do. 

Stop staring.

Study leave, i think someone was mocking me from afar. 

Coward! Must be desmong. JOke lah.

you kno i  love youu.

*i  particularly like this picture because it makes my Cs look almost like Ds. You know what i'm talking about. ;-) *

Some kids' drawing at spring. IT IS SO ADORABLE!

I would so hang that in my room.

Franklin posing. 

A bunch had dinner at Manhattan Fish Market.

His shirt was really gay. thank goodness 

i dont see him wearing it anymore.

Amy and i decided to design a new mascot for McDonalds.

Ronald was just too pervy looking.

I cant remember what we named it, but it's cute no? 

Some girls were laughing from the corner. 

we were soO proud  of the litte critter. 

BUt when we left, the person killed it.

Do you think it would've made a kickass mascot?

I bought this way overpriced. at Rm60+

it was the IN thing, demand was high so prices were too. 

Sorry econs habit.

We got those little hippos at Rm4 from some machine at KL (form3 kl trip). the green one

on the right is mine, silver on the left is Clarice's and the top on belongs to En Hui.

I just realised it looks like a shrine. 

ARGH.

A see - a zit! Between the brows!

*i DO have a space between the browS*

Day before SPM. 

Zoe (Lee) was in her bikini showing off to the swimming santa lookalike.

Not really. 

But up there, as you can see, a Jesse - concentrating on his sejarah papers. 

Who else would it be with that snow white complexion of his. ;)

If you're a frequent swkclub goer, you'll see this kitty around!

he has a missing toe on his right hind leg.

Huina's temporary puppy called C-cup.

Because her whole family would feed it without knowing that someone else already did.

Seriously cute!

Normal everyday scene of 5A. 

Clarice choking on something, joash laughing along, and me 

provoking them even more.

This was of course in Hong Kong noodle house in Saberkas.

Joash posing. No biggie. =D i love you!

HAha i had a very unpleasant memory that i (sadly) cannot share. 

I dont think anyone else deserves something that bad. Joo, you were there. 

you know.

Oh. Zoe was forcefeeding people her dinner. 

There, reason to her figure. 

During monobrow's Jocelyn's birthday.

Occasions like these just calls for a camwhore session!

my hair. o__o

no comment on this one.

My hair - again!

Pretty ahlian.

My good friend from PBK, hang yau. Didnt keep in touch. =(

NO COMMENT.

Jocelyn's parteh. 

> .> camhos!

Last year outside bing. Very random. 

She tried to hide one eye with hair because she only applied mascara 

on one side only.

LOL.

Clarice after her surgery!

Her lips were BLUE. I thought it only happened in movies.

Another quote!: 

"I was feeling down, so i wore the class shirt to cheer myself up."

Aww.

At the stutong market just behind my house eating stuff.

Those girls were craving!

Mind you, Jamie eats a lot. 

T__T 

yeah yeah. your metabolism rate.

samantha with her harrier! 

She was the driver who drove us to eat!

So man.

This was the end of form3. See the mess on the floor? PMR ova!

Matthew and the smallest hamster of the batch.

Matthew the fish man!

Jamie. When she had longer hair.

I miss 3b =((

OH YEAH! 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY!

*not like she'll read it anyways*

damn poser. hAHAH

Angelo! 

Agnes' hamster who passed way this year.

RIP. =( 

Hong Kong Noodle House.

Yes, i do love that shirt. 

Stupid candids.

Jesse's fault.

Abstinencee? During the yawn inducing talk - forgot what it's called.

I've "lost" my card. 

Seriously.

Whoa my hair!

This was around the end of form 4. 

Just had to take a photo with our beloved, but 

dont-mess-with-him cikgu willie.

One of the nicest picture that i love. <3

Stacked plastic chairs always induces inspiration.

Sidney's bedroom! 

I cant remember when. But we had a great time!

We scared the crap out of franklin - he has a 

irrational fear of balloons.

OOH. Alex drank around two cans of heineken, and fell asleep.

Hahah rookie.

Coffee bean with franklin. 

I look... no comment.

=.=

on clarice's bday! She made everyone wear black.

I went with pink. (so puii) 

She even called those people who hasnt show up to wear black.

I felt special and cool~

Mainly because we walked to town from club under the sun.

After the class photoshoot! 

At tun jugah's food gallery. My hair! 

(no i do not have some obsession for myOWN hair.

i just  - just miss those times when my hair would look 

good pretty effortless)

teddy! <3 d="">

That's.. it??

I'll post up more pictures taken using my lappie's cam soon.

I miss you guys! 

I'll see some of you all tonight!